I know i don't wear feminine clothing (yet) or anything, but still. Most, if not all, people still see me as male. And I'm too self conscious too correct them.
good thing i know that a few people i came out to are okay with it though c:
though it sucks that it's the norm in both places, there's good people everywhere.
Oh god I love you girls so much. <3 Stay strong.
(this message may or may not have been brought to you by effects of alcohol.)
You too :D
At you don't somehow manage to slur your typing like SOME PEOPLE!
Alright so my therapist thinks I'm not depressed enough to be transgender. It's not like hiding it for 8-9 years has made me pretty much stone cold to all emotions or anything. Also apparently I have to be super girly to be trans?
you need one here.
doesnt look very promising for me.
oh my god. tomorrow is the big day and i'm feeling way sicker than i usually do.
The point is that I would get hormones and apparently that's the only thing stopping me
I have an appointment on wednesday I need to figure something out
It's not like someone would lie to get hormones... The therapists should be on your side anyway, they can't decide for you what you feel like.
lots of people have to lie over in norway because of the way stuff works over there.
what a crock of shit. There's no right way to be a woman, a man, a transperson. Telling a client they aren't depressed enough is probably the last thing you should do as a therapist as well
Well this is the only place in Finland where I can realistically go to so I need to convince them somehow. I mean should I go out in female clothing in an obviously male body? I doubt the public reception would be very good.
well, there has to be something you can do.
Been opening up to a few friends about this lately, Told two irl friends and they took it fine and were really supportive about it, I ended up not talking about this to my mother but she knows it is related to me being transgender now.
me: I'm bad at making decisions, at the moment, it would feel as the only right choice.. but I am afraid that I will regret it later
friend: well that means that you aren't ready yet. You have to think about it properly. You have your whole life to decide
Is it true that it is never too late to start the sex change?
I'm really starting to dislike the negative attitudes in this thread. Stop the self-deprecation, it's not going to help anything. You can't rely on the hormones to get you where you want to be, YOU have to take yourself there. If you're tired of people using male pronouns around you, do something about it. Wear your clothes out in public, and stop being so afraid. If you want to be seen as female, you must present yourself as female. And that has to start at some point.
Girls come in all shapes and sizes and varieties, nobody is going to suspect anything unless you're wearing lingerie in public.
If you don't have all the things you need to present yourself as a girl, improvise. Don't have fake breasts? Get a bra and stuff it with old socks. Are your hips too narrow? Roll up some boxers and put them in the sides of your pants. There are tons of things you can do to make things better, and continuing to present yourself as male is not one of them.
What are the rules and regulations regarding transsexuality over in Scandinavia, anyway? I would have assumed they were pretty liberal about it, but I've heard that there's a lot of negativity towards trans-people over there.
For anyone who feels like this, watch this video, it helped me a lot cos I could relate to quite a bit of it :)
with what money?
awlrighty, i'm going to head to bed. good luck in figuring out a way to talk to your therapist.
Pretty spot-on vid too
Being proactive really can be helpful
oh, i couldn't sleep by the way
I just wish I could have a normal life. I'm already having enough problems and going through a sex change now would mess up everything even more. My social relationships right now aren't too good and I can't afford to people to see me as weird and potentially lose more friends. (I just lost two of my most important people for things slightly related to this so I am seriously scared, and saying "they weren't your real friends doesn't help")
I'm also really scared about using medicine, it took me 4 years for doctors to persuade me to start taking antidepressants and I admit, I clearly should have started it before. I don't even take painkillers, I just can't I'm scared that I abuse them like I did before. Just seeing my tablets on my table scares me that if I flip out I might do anything and I can't stop myself. Going through a surgery is something I wish to never experience, I am so scared of it. Modifying my body is so scary, I don't want to ruin it, I just wish I could learn to live like the way I am. Maybe this is just a stage in my life, even though it has been going on for as long as I remember. Being an artificial girl just feels wrong. I don't want to crossdress because I just feel wrong doing it knowing that I am not a real girl. Fuck, I will never be able to give birth. It's just something that makes me so sad.
I appreciate the support and information I have received, but I will have to live with this and for now I decide to keep being my androgynous self. I find it hard to make decisions and I change my mind way too often and I am really scared about anything that might go wrong and if I change my mind later I will hate myself even more than I do now.
Feel free to PM me, I love talking to you people and I know how important it is for me to receive support while I give my support to you.
I just wanted to get this out of my system, sorry.
Please don't say anything negative about this post, I feel really vulnerable right now.
we're running out of hearts!
youre all fucking sick. pathetic excuses for men, you should all be castrated and then suffer when you realize you dont want to be a woman after all. stupid twats.
Also, received a hate mail from that guy who just got banned, it was so ridiculous that it actually made me laugh. I was going to share it but maybe I shouldn't.
holidays are a long ways off and my birthday already passed months ago.
not to mention my neighbours are fucking assholes who drill stuff into the wall at night, have their dog bark insanely loud and call us assholes for whatever reason they can conjure up.
i'll find money though thats for sure!