1. Post #2241
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
    5,547 Posts
    can i still lurk?
    alright, so i can still lurk
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  2. Post #2242
    J. Jett's Avatar
    October 2010
    834 Posts
    It's simply amazing how casual transphobia is.
    Unlike with racist comments, where people do that little look around to make sure there's no racial minorities within earshot, people just blab it out without even giving it a second thought.

    I'm at my favorite coffee shop, I go there every single day.
    The barista working the counter is pretty friendly with me, we usually have little conversations, sometimes we see each other around town and she'll go out of her way just to say hi.
    She's talking with a friend about a party, when he says "Bring some friends, and make sure they're REAL girls, I don't want no lady cocks." She laughs and says "Trannies are so gross, eughh."
    Meanwhile I'm standing right fucking there, at the counter directly in front of her, shocked like "Did you really just say that?".
    I pay for my drink and storm the fuck out of there.

    Guess I need to find a new coffee shop.
    Sound just like an average school day for me... Homophobic and transphobic comments are very very casual here.

    Edited:

    The teachers do nothing about this
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  3. Post #2243
    Delicious Caramel
    Zeldy's Avatar
    June 2006
    1,423 Posts
    Yeah, those random people can really influence your feelings of confidence. And having them apologize for calling you male is often very satisfying.
    I know what you mean. But they all "correct" them selves. :/

    I know i don't wear feminine clothing (yet) or anything, but still. Most, if not all, people still see me as male. And I'm too self conscious too correct them.

    Edited:

    I typed a note (beause my hand writing sucks) about 3 years ago when I came out to her as gay. I left it by her bed side at night, went to my room and locked the door.

    It just seems a little immature to do it like that.

    Edited:



    Well, it feels immature to do so. And I'd be eventually having to sit face to face with her anyway. The only reason why I came here for Spring Break is because she has appointments set up for me (orthodontist & doctor for blood test (I have a blood condition)) and I'm basically going to be here the entire week.

    I'm really just considering not telling her, going back to my apartment, and wait until the weekend to tell her via a text. That way she can call me over the phone to talk and I won't have to be face to face. If she wants to be, she can take a 3 hour drive up to my apartment.
    I don't really see it as immature. Its one way of communication, so why not utilize it if you can't bring yourself to actually tell her face to face?
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  4. Post #2244
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
    5,547 Posts
    Sound just like an average school day for me... Homophobic and transphobic comments are very very casual here.

    Edited:

    The teachers do nothing about this
    it's pretty damn unfortunate.

    good thing i know that a few people i came out to are okay with it though c:

    though it sucks that it's the norm in both places, there's good people everywhere.
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  5. Post #2245
    Delicious Caramel
    Zeldy's Avatar
    June 2006
    1,423 Posts
    Oh god I love you girls so much. <3 Stay strong.

    (this message may or may not have been brought to you by effects of alcohol.)
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  6. Post #2246
    ~gay boi~
    Chickens!'s Avatar
    July 2010
    14,541 Posts
    You too :D
    At you don't somehow manage to slur your typing like SOME PEOPLE!
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  7. Post #2247
    Certified Catgirl Maid
    slayer20's Avatar
    January 2006
    9,673 Posts
    You too :D
    At you don't somehow manage to slur your typing like SOME PEOPLE!
    Oh geeze
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  8. Post #2248
    ~gay boi~
    Chickens!'s Avatar
    July 2010
    14,541 Posts
    Oh no, Busted!
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  9. Post #2249
    FPKawaii's Avatar
    June 2010
    6,357 Posts
    Sound just like an average school day for me... Homophobic and transphobic comments are very very casual here.

    Edited:

    The teachers do nothing about this
    I feel lucky, because homosexuals are pretty well accepted here. Trans is completely unheard of here so you'd never hear a negative comment towards it.
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  10. Post #2250
    Tattimatonen's Avatar
    July 2008
    664 Posts
    Alright so my therapist thinks I'm not depressed enough to be transgender. It's not like hiding it for 8-9 years has made me pretty much stone cold to all emotions or anything. Also apparently I have to be super girly to be trans?
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  11. Post #2251
    aerika's Avatar
    January 2012
    82 Posts
    Alright so my therapist thinks I'm not depressed enough to be transgender. It's not like hiding it for 8-9 years has made me pretty much stone cold to all emotions or anything. Also apparently I have to be super girly to be trans?
    Why I never bothered with a therapist.
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  12. Post #2252
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
    5,547 Posts
    you need one here.

    doesnt look very promising for me.
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  13. Post #2253
    FPKawaii's Avatar
    June 2010
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    Alright so my therapist thinks I'm not depressed enough to be transgender. It's not like hiding it for 8-9 years has made me pretty much stone cold to all emotions or anything. Also apparently I have to be super girly to be trans?
    Fuck therapists, they think everything has to go exactly by the book and that everyone is the same. Their so full of shit.
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  14. Post #2254
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
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    oh my god. tomorrow is the big day and i'm feeling way sicker than i usually do.

    ugh...
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  15. Post #2255
    Tattimatonen's Avatar
    July 2008
    664 Posts
    The point is that I would get hormones and apparently that's the only thing stopping me

    I have an appointment on wednesday I need to figure something out
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  16. Post #2256
    a cervine
    nnanna's Avatar
    May 2008
    7,296 Posts
    It's not like someone would lie to get hormones... The therapists should be on your side anyway, they can't decide for you what you feel like.
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  17. Post #2257
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
    5,547 Posts
    lots of people have to lie over in norway because of the way stuff works over there.
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  18. Post #2258
    J. Jett's Avatar
    October 2010
    834 Posts
    Also apparently I have to be super girly to be trans?
    That's bullshit. There are many different girls - super-girly girls, normal girls, butch girls, whatever girls. If butch cis-gender girls exist, so do butch trans-girls. Your therapist is very uneducated and is an idiot.
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  19. Post #2259
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
    5,547 Posts
    That's bullshit. There are many different girls - super-girly girls, normal girls, butch girls, whatever girls. If butch cis-gender girls exist, so do butch trans-girls. Your therapist is very uneducated and is an idiot.
    it's unfortunate but there isn't much they can do about it.
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  20. Post #2260
    Triumph Forks's Avatar
    July 2009
    4,689 Posts
    Alright so my therapist thinks I'm not depressed enough to be transgender. It's not like hiding it for 8-9 years has made me pretty much stone cold to all emotions or anything. Also apparently I have to be super girly to be trans?
    "be more depressed, you're not trans enough" is what i'm getting out of that

    what a crock of shit. There's no right way to be a woman, a man, a transperson. Telling a client they aren't depressed enough is probably the last thing you should do as a therapist as well
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  21. Post #2261
    Tattimatonen's Avatar
    July 2008
    664 Posts
    Well this is the only place in Finland where I can realistically go to so I need to convince them somehow. I mean should I go out in female clothing in an obviously male body? I doubt the public reception would be very good.
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  22. Post #2262
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
    5,547 Posts
    well, there has to be something you can do.
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  23. Post #2263
    a cervine
    nnanna's Avatar
    May 2008
    7,296 Posts
    Been opening up to a few friends about this lately, Told two irl friends and they took it fine and were really supportive about it, I ended up not talking about this to my mother but she knows it is related to me being transgender now.

    me: I'm bad at making decisions, at the moment, it would feel as the only right choice.. but I am afraid that I will regret it later
    friend: well that means that you aren't ready yet. You have to think about it properly. You have your whole life to decide


    Is it true that it is never too late to start the sex change?
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  24. Post #2264
    If someone calls you a whore, salute them!
    T-Sonar.0's Avatar
    July 2007
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    Been opening up to a few friends about this lately, Told two irl friends and they took it fine and were really supportive about it, I ended up not talking about this to my mother but she knows it is related to me being transgender now.

    me: I'm bad at making decisions, at the moment, it would feel as the only right choice.. but I am afraid that I will regret it later
    friend: well that means that you aren't ready yet. You have to think about it properly. You have your whole life to decide


    Is it true that it is never too late to start the sex change?
    I have those feelings of regret too. I think you're going to have them all the time. You need a therapist. And yeah, you can start any time you want but, of course, the younger you are the better.
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  25. Post #2265
    Riodoku's Avatar
    May 2010
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    I'm really starting to dislike the negative attitudes in this thread. Stop the self-deprecation, it's not going to help anything. You can't rely on the hormones to get you where you want to be, YOU have to take yourself there. If you're tired of people using male pronouns around you, do something about it. Wear your clothes out in public, and stop being so afraid. If you want to be seen as female, you must present yourself as female. And that has to start at some point.
    Girls come in all shapes and sizes and varieties, nobody is going to suspect anything unless you're wearing lingerie in public.
    If you don't have all the things you need to present yourself as a girl, improvise. Don't have fake breasts? Get a bra and stuff it with old socks. Are your hips too narrow? Roll up some boxers and put them in the sides of your pants. There are tons of things you can do to make things better, and continuing to present yourself as male is not one of them.

    Well this is the only place in Finland where I can realistically go to so I need to convince them somehow. I mean should I go out in female clothing in an obviously male body? I doubt the public reception would be very good.
    Yes, showing them that you already live in your desired role plays hugely into convincing them.
    What are the rules and regulations regarding transsexuality over in Scandinavia, anyway? I would have assumed they were pretty liberal about it, but I've heard that there's a lot of negativity towards trans-people over there.


    Is it true that it is never too late to start the sex change?
    The sex change is actually better if done pre-hormones. Estrogen will shrink the male genitals, and thus there is less material to work with.
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  26. Post #2266
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    December 2009
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    "be more depressed, you're not trans enough" is what i'm getting out of that

    what a crock of shit. There's no right way to be a woman, a man, a transperson. Telling a client they aren't depressed enough is probably the last thing you should do as a therapist as well
    I've heard people who have been told they're "not trans enough"... it's complete rubbish...

    For anyone who feels like this, watch this video, it helped me a lot cos I could relate to quite a bit of it :)
    http://nicholassteer.tumblr.com/post...about-myself-d
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  27. Post #2267
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
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    Wear your clothes out in public
    what clothes?
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  28. Post #2268
    Riodoku's Avatar
    May 2010
    602 Posts
    what clothes?
    So get some.
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  29. Post #2269
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
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    with what money?
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  30. Post #2270
    Tattimatonen's Avatar
    July 2008
    664 Posts
    I'm really starting to dislike the negative attitudes in this thread. Stop the self-deprecation, it's not going to help anything. You can't rely on the hormones to get you where you want to be, YOU have to take yourself there. If you're tired of people using male pronouns around you, do something about it.
    Well it's not my style to wear super-feminine clothing. I mean I wear girl's pants geez

    What are the rules and regulations regarding transsexuality over in Scandinavia, anyway? I would have assumed they were pretty liberal about it, but I've heard that there's a lot of negativity towards trans-people over there.
    You actually have to be sterile to get a gender change on legal documents, which is completely silly.

    Edited:

    Unless the laws have recently changed, which I doubt.
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  31. Post #2271
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
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    awlrighty, i'm going to head to bed. good luck in figuring out a way to talk to your therapist.
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  32. Post #2272
    Riodoku's Avatar
    May 2010
    602 Posts
    Well it's not my style to wear super-feminine clothing. I mean I wear girl's pants geez
    There's still a lot you can do there. Just wear some more colorful shirts, add a bra and stuff it.

    You actually have to be sterile to get a gender change on legal documents, which is completely silly.

    Edited:

    Unless the laws have recently changed, which I doubt.
    Well, that's kind of true everywhere. I mean, you have to have the operation in most parts of the world, and that's pretty much completely ending the ability to reproduce.

    with what money?
    Jesus. Sell old possessions, do some work for neighbors, save up money you get from holidays and other events, or see if your friends can help out.
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  33. Post #2273
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    July 2009
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    I've heard people who have been told they're "not trans enough"... it's complete rubbish...

    For anyone who feels like this, watch this video, it helped me a lot cos I could relate to quite a bit of it :)
    http://nicholassteer.tumblr.com/post...about-myself-d
    very true, I'm not overly girlish but I know who I am and what I want to do. I'll say that I'm a bit nervous about effing up my appointment, but I feel I'm not in the wrong for having gone through male conditioning, that what led me to where I am should make sense to a trained professional.

    Pretty spot-on vid too
    with what money?
    Holiday, Birthday, Job (I'm aware of how bad the Canadian youth unemployment rate is, but that doesn't mean you can't try) and shop thrift?

    Being proactive really can be helpful
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  34. Post #2274
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
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    Holiday, Birthday, Job (I'm aware of how bad the Canadian youth unemployment rate is, but that doesn't mean you can't try) and shop thrift?

    Being proactive really can be helpful
    my birthday was a few months ago back in january. christmas is a long ways off and there aren't any jobs here. besides even then i'm too uncomfortable with myself to actually handle talking to people.

    Edited:

    oh, i couldn't sleep by the way
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  35. Post #2275
    a cervine
    nnanna's Avatar
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    I just wish I could have a normal life. I'm already having enough problems and going through a sex change now would mess up everything even more. My social relationships right now aren't too good and I can't afford to people to see me as weird and potentially lose more friends. (I just lost two of my most important people for things slightly related to this so I am seriously scared, and saying "they weren't your real friends doesn't help")

    I'm also really scared about using medicine, it took me 4 years for doctors to persuade me to start taking antidepressants and I admit, I clearly should have started it before. I don't even take painkillers, I just can't I'm scared that I abuse them like I did before. Just seeing my tablets on my table scares me that if I flip out I might do anything and I can't stop myself. Going through a surgery is something I wish to never experience, I am so scared of it. Modifying my body is so scary, I don't want to ruin it, I just wish I could learn to live like the way I am. Maybe this is just a stage in my life, even though it has been going on for as long as I remember. Being an artificial girl just feels wrong. I don't want to crossdress because I just feel wrong doing it knowing that I am not a real girl. Fuck, I will never be able to give birth. It's just something that makes me so sad.

    I appreciate the support and information I have received, but I will have to live with this and for now I decide to keep being my androgynous self. I find it hard to make decisions and I change my mind way too often and I am really scared about anything that might go wrong and if I change my mind later I will hate myself even more than I do now.

    Feel free to PM me, I love talking to you people and I know how important it is for me to receive support while I give my support to you.

    I just wanted to get this out of my system, sorry.

    Please don't say anything negative about this post, I feel really vulnerable right now.
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  36. Post #2276
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
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    we're running out of hearts!
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  37. Post #2277

    April 2012
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    youre all fucking sick. pathetic excuses for men, you should all be castrated and then suffer when you realize you dont want to be a woman after all. stupid twats.
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  38. Post #2278
    Riodoku's Avatar
    May 2010
    602 Posts
    I just wish I could have a normal life. I'm already having enough problems and going through a sex change now would mess up everything even more. My social relationships right now aren't too good and I can't afford to people to see me as weird and potentially lose more friends. (I just lost two of my most important people for things slightly related to this so I am seriously scared, and saying "they weren't your real friends doesn't help")

    I'm also really scared about using medicine, it took me 4 years for doctors to persuade me to start taking antidepressants and I admit, I clearly should have started it before. I don't even take painkillers, I just can't I'm scared that I abuse them like I did before. Just seeing my tablets on my table scares me that if I flip out I might do anything and I can't stop myself. Going through a surgery is something I wish to never experience, I am so scared of it. Modifying my body is so scary, I don't want to ruin it, I just wish I could learn to live like the way I am. Maybe this is just a stage in my life, even though it has been going on for as long as I remember. Being an artificial girl just feels wrong. I don't want to crossdress because I just feel wrong doing it knowing that I am not a real girl. Fuck, I will never be able to give birth. It's just something that makes me so sad.

    I appreciate the support and information I have received, but I will have to live with this and for now I decide to keep being my androgynous self. I find it hard to make decisions and I change my mind way too often and I am really scared about anything that might go wrong and if I change my mind later I will hate myself even more than I do now.

    Feel free to PM me, I love talking to you people and I know how important it is for me to receive support while I give my support to you.

    I just wanted to get this out of my system, sorry.

    Please don't say anything negative about this post, I feel really vulnerable right now.
    Surgery is not at all a requirement, and there's no reason for you to go through it if it's not what you want. Do you not have a therapist that you can talk these issues through with?

    youre all fucking sick. pathetic excuses for men, you should all be castrated and then suffer when you realize you dont want to be a woman after all. stupid twats.
    I agree. Come, let's go away, you and I. We can be away from all of this. Be my lover.
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  39. Post #2279
    a cervine
    nnanna's Avatar
    May 2008
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    Surgery is not at all a requirement, and there's no reason for you to go through it if it's not what you want.
    What is the point of starting hormones if I don't plan to finish the sex change?

    Also, received a hate mail from that guy who just got banned, it was so ridiculous that it actually made me laugh. I was going to share it but maybe I shouldn't.
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  40. Post #2280
    Head over heels in love with Pudding~
    Dennab
    January 2012
    5,547 Posts
    Jesus. Sell old possessions, do some work for neighbors, save up money you get from holidays and other events, or see if your friends can help out.
    i hate to say this but i have almost no possessions worth a sum of money that'd be worth the effort needed to sell them off. my friends are also poor as fuck and i wouldn't even consider them friends anyway [remember that guy who called me a tranny?]

    holidays are a long ways off and my birthday already passed months ago.

    not to mention my neighbours are fucking assholes who drill stuff into the wall at night, have their dog bark insanely loud and call us assholes for whatever reason they can conjure up.

    Edited:

    i'll find money though thats for sure!
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