Alright, i'm back. And no, i don't want a "formal apology", i was still really pissed off when i sent that to fish and i still am pissed off about all this. Every thing else i wanted still applies though, the ones about being left alone and at least being accepted? I'm trying to sort out a mental disorder and a far too cluttered up life and i really do not deserve to have to deal with this, especially when if you're actually nice to me i can be the biggest bro ever.
So can we please, PLEASE, drop all this shit and get along? I never post about Chell, ever, so why does this seem to be a continuing problem? Regardless of most of what you believe i really meant most of what i said in my tumblr thing, aside from the retarded apology thing. I honestly feel like you are making me out to be and treating me like i'm inferior. This is proven by the fact that i had an entire thread made just to mock me for wanting someone to talk to about my life, as well as claims that my fetish is weird even though nobody ever seems to have as violent of a response to milk posting his furry stuff(no offense to milk) constantly, which, in my opinion, is way fucking weirder. But i so much as reference Portal and you all come at me like a fucking lynch mob.
Try putting yourself in my position. You just figured out you have a mental condition. You have the worst classes you've ever had the displeasure of taking. You have to brunt the pain of being a vent for your entire family complaining about your sister's pregnancy. You have no friends outside of school. You have to carry a 50 kg bag everyday, which, by the way, is about 15 kg more than my bag should support. You're in love with a girl that's on the other side of the world as well as being 2 years older than you. You can't play airsoft because nothing ever seems to be working. You have no relationships with girls and never have for your whole life. The only self-indulgence you get is thinking a video game character is hot. And to top it off, you're getting judged and maliciously mentally attacked by people just because you think said video game girl is hot, and made the mistake of ever thinking anyone on FP would be understanding. Not to mention the blame is constantly shifted onto you even though you are rarely the cause of any problems.
Think about that. I put up with a lot of shit. I don't need any more on top of that. I know there are nice people like notrabies and cpt. armadillo and felix, etc, but as a whole IFAP is ruined by the assholes. It makes it almost not worth it to log on here anymore. The only reason i do anymore is because i have nothing to DO and i get really bored. I really don't know WHY i come on here anymore, everytime i post it's SOME attack on me for something, like you go out of your way to find something to insult me for and even if there is nothing you default to either my life posts or my fetish. It's really fucking sad that you are so demented and WRONG but also so much of a pussy that you'll do that constantly, and seriously sounds to me like sociopathic behavior. Maybe you have so much shit in your life that's all you know to do is pick on others because you're picked on or some shit, i don't know. Still, it's no excuse and you should be talking about it with people like i do instead of just going and doing the same thing.
I'm most likely going to get rated dumbs by idiots that still either think that i'm in the wrong for voicing my utter hatred for some of you, such as venom, stupideye, piggy, no party hats, darksamus, and probably a lot more that i'm just forgetting. Or maybe you still think i'm inferior. Either way you're a hypocrite for rating dumbs and it should be fairly obvious WHY. As i said, i don't want an apology, that was stupid of me to even consider saying if this had any chance of reaching IFAP but i continue to get this hope that maybe THIS time you'll see reason, maybe THIS time i'll be able to post without getting insulted. You need to grow up. I've seriously seen some wicked shit man. There are still nights where i am plagued by what i've seen, nights where i wake up in a cold sweat, and even some nights i cry myself to sleep. And yet through all that i'm the one mending my ways and learning to be nicer and more accepting. I find the problem in my life and i fix that problem. That's the way it's always been for me and it's not gonna change because it works. And i'm 15. Most of you all are much older than me but yet i still have a higher maturity age? See it this way, do i insult people for having fetishes? No, i don't.